Isn’t it a wonder how people change?

I know this guy, we met roughly 6 years ago. We became friends. He used to be so vibrant with life and was very polite to everyone around him. He used to be “cool”. But now, I don’t know what to say about him. He seemed to be really rude and takes advantage of people. He became a f*ckin smoker and a f*ckin drunk. He stopped taking care of himself. Maybe it’s just because he had a bad break-up with his girlfriend…Or maybe because he is underpaid or something. 

He once asked me to do something for him, I did help him out but during that time he would ask some money. I started hating him since that day. I know I shouldn’t judge him by his actions. I know I should be more patient as his friend. But I seemed to hate him, he is unfair, rude, a show-off, a f*ckin jerk. Sometimes I have this urge to hit him on the face. Sometimes I want to make him swallow that beer bottle whole, make him gag on it or something, just to put some sense in him.

I used to have so much fun being around/with him. We used to be comfortable with each other’s presence. Damn it, I’m so pissed off right now. I know and I need to be more understanding. I keep trying to. I don’t know but I do know I still consider him as a friend. But if he continues to be like this, I just hope I would have the right mindset to just walk away and not beat the f*ck out of him.